Another Day

I sit, waiting--
for what, I'm never quite sure,
life seems to pass me by,
but I'm oblivious;
Always trying harder,
to be perfect --
Eat better, be healthier, read more, sleep less;
for what?--
Life is quite cruel,
or am I cruel to myself?
In all honesty, the latter seems more realistic.
I want my life to be a perfect mandala.
what if I stopped trying so hard--
perhaps then I would
see the underlying perfections,
perfectly present in all things.
Yes! Thats it! Just stop trying,
and let everything flow, as it is.
If only I knew how to stop trying.
then I could just Be.
Maybe tomorrow;
Yes! Tomorrow I will be perfect!